Masks..?

Is it even right to feel this way..?

I was born in this life. I'm not complaining about where I am right now, or how we are supposed to live our lives as dictated by the church and my parents... We all have our time of doubts every now and then, and sometimes, the mask that you wear to keep everyone out breaks a bit..

I think i may be liking someone too much, much more than what was deemed appropriate by the surroundings i live in..

I know I'm too young and, being a pastor's kid, i should be the one setting an example for the other kids to follow.. but even the strongest can falter and fail.. and sometimes, being strong is quite tiring..

Sometimes i wish that i can be like any ordinary kid, not pressured enough to meet the expectations of everyone he knows.. not trying too hard to please everyone..

In books, they told me that being an adolescent is not easy.. I didn't knw how hard it is until im already here.