Tearing my hair out of Frustration

Last week, i was so frustrated with myself, i literally smacked a hardbound copy of "Breaking Dawn" on my cheek. hard. twice. still hurts till now.

Why can't i learn to play the keyboard as well as my brother? or even just the guitar?

Why can't i sing like Hayley Williams?

Why can't i draw like my friend does?

(These questions really come when you're lying on your bed, while thinking of everything and everyone you know at the same time.)

So, all these Why's gathered to form a massive ball of negative energy inside me, and i had no way out. For me, being good isn't enough, it has to be great! It always has to be something that spells W-O-W. If it doesn't, i start from scratch and i do it and do it and do it until i can get it right.

Which is why i feel so disappointed with myself last week. Cause in everything i try to do, I can never be great. I still cannot set the keyboard ablaze (in fact, im nearing the point where i realy want to set fire to it.), i still cannot sing like Hayley Williams, and i draw stuffs here and there, but still not as good as friend's drawings.

But then again, I realized...

Why are people so unhappy nowadays? mainly, because they cannot be content with what they have, with what they are. With who I am.

I realized that, I may not be as good as my brother in playing the piano, but i have a gift for language. (Or so i think.)

I may not be as good as Hayley, but heck, singing's not about competition, singing's about being able to express yoursef through the songs you sing!

and I still cannot draw. period. though my godfather is kind enough to offer to teach me... :)

Contentment. That was what I don't have a week ago. I have to admit that i still haven't perfected this particular art yet, but im on my way to being as close to perfecting it as possible.
You have to look at what you have, not on what you don't have, cause if you don't, pretty soon you'll end up smacking yourself with a hardbound book like me.
And of course, you just really can't have it all, for if you do, you will die. Ony God is allowed to be the perfect being, and i could not agree more. :)